The Official Kicking Myself Thread

[nickola.pazderic]

For whining losers of the trading game-- of course due to the failures of our genius, body functions, family, and social calls-- I start a thread with the approval of Billy: The Official Kicking Myself Thread.

I'll kick myself first and good! With a quote from a letter I wrote to Billy:

dumb question



Hi Billy,

The trade in IWM/TNA has been amazingly profitiable. I am frustrated to no end, however. I managed to find a very good entry in TNA on Wednesday the 29th. I put 1/3 of my available risk capital into the trade and managed to see it grow quickly in 4 hours. But because I was called to the funeral of my aunt and fearing the anxiety I might experince away from my trading desk, I closed my position at 80 USD even. I missed a major move to 85 on Thursday and Friday. Yesterday and today, I could not achieve a good entry point, so I was left to watch TNA accrue more value.

This is, of course, a dumb, beginner condition. I continually tell myself that trends come and trends go and that I will act appropriately when the next big move comes along. But as a rookie, I have mismanaged a magnificant opportunity. Few will understand this failure, except those privy to the workings of the robot.

... Do you think I should start a thread called: The Kicking Oneself Thread, where EV members can express their frustrations at their failings?

...



So please kick away. Share your humiliation. And Laugh.

[adam ali]

Nick,

Perhaps one of the benefits of your thread lies in community members being able to express prospective trades PRIOR to actually taking them, particularly when the trade is contrary to Pascal/Billy signals.

Member feedback (which in your case, one would hope, would have been to stay in the trade) hopefully will help allay some of the normal anxiety all of us feel when trading. A bit of a positive feedback loop, if you will.

[nickola.pazderic]

With all due respect, my point is simply: provide a forum to fulminate about mistakes such as my current one that has cost me 11.56 points, i.e., a possible 5% gain to my entire portfolio if I'd simply kept my position. I don't even want to consider the potential gain had I gone all in on the strong buy. Pain.

[Pierre Brodeur]

Nickola

I don't know if this thread will be successful because most traders are a special breed of people that is generally
-1- on their own planet
-2- very focussed on the objective
-3- and aware that they will make stupid mistakes from time to time

I have done this profesiionnaly for 30 years and on my own for 7 years now and I have trained myself not to "ventilate" on decisions I make (or made) based on external life factors. They just happen.

BTW, I think the word trader is over used. I consider myself a "surfer" who rides the waves. That's all we can do because that's all the market will give us over longer periods of time

Pierre

[nickola.pazderic]

I thought of this, too. No doubt many are less volatile than me. But I do not believe that people don't kick themselves. I only believe that people will refuse to vent for many reasons.

So let the thread waste into the recesses of EV forum posts or keep it alive. It matters not to me.

[Andrei]

I thought of this, too. No doubt many are less volatile than me. But I do not believe that people don't kick themselves. I only believe that people will refuse to vent for many reasons.

So let the thread waste into the recesses of EV forum posts or keep it alive. It matters not to me.

Nickola, I agree with Pierre, and don't see why anyone would "ventilate" or openly admit they've made a mistake. I'm afraid only experience (personal) can teach to make right decisions most of the time.
As for the initial problem, I don't see why you should deviate from the system, because statistically it will be positive anyway. If you are afraid that profits can run away from you, just cut half of the position, or take 1/3 out , and that's it!

[grems8544]

I actually think that this thread will be successful, provided people feel "comfortable" with an entry which has their name attached. Here's the rationale:

Many of us, myself included, despite years of "doing this", still are learning/following/adapting. This game constantly changes, and that theme is the only constant that I think I can acknowledge. I think we all can learn from each other's mistakes, and to this end, it will identify common areas that need to be discussed and rationalized away so that we can become better surfers ...

For me, with a system that is not of my creation (e.g. the Robots), I always am suspect at

1) back tests that I did not run myself,
2) analysis that the authors performed but which has not been acknowledged openly (not because of hiding anything, but simply because of the desire to present clear, concise data and sometimes other analysis detracts from the main message),
3) how much capital should be committed

#1 arises because I am a voracious backtester; I have my own methods, and I know my methods are the best <you're supposed to grin here>. This is a terrible bias that must be overcome within my head, and it isn't easy.
#2 arises out of pure communication -- teaching requires conciseness and clarity, and a thorough understanding of the subject matter. This means far more information is processed before it is communicated, and this is a natural step in dissemination. Again, "playing catch up" always leaves me feeling exposed, and when it's my capital at risk, it's hard to cross this particular chasm.
#3 is an ongoing battle for me -- all I can say is that I'm starting with a few hundred shares and I'll increase the amount as my confidence goes upward.

So, with this latest round, I had multiple positions on with IWM in multiple accounts. If you recall, we had several days where the signal was strong, and correspondingly, I picked up 100-sh block entries each day (6/10, 6/11, 6/15) using a combination of the levels recommended as well as my own discretion. On 6/22 I decided to sell for modest gains @ 80.46, leaving only 100sh each in my various accounts. There was no "reason" to sell, I simply had been hit hard with other mean-reverting strategies in the plummet from 6/1 to 6/13 and I needed to recover (fractions) of those losses.

Of course, with hindsight being 20/20, had I *strictly* followed the Robot trades, I would have made back a good portion of my 6/1 - 6/13 losses.

The lesson learned for me: Follow the Robot signals mechanically. The monies allocated within my Robot trades stand alone, and they cannot be influenced by the entire portfolio positions. So, for a $100K account, if 50K is allocated to the Robots, then the other 50K stands alone. I know this, I've practiced this, but in reality, it has been a hard rule to internalize.

[ozash]

It's quotes like this below that make this site pure gold ... honesty by the people leading that pull no punches.
Ash

I actually think that this thread will be successful, provided people feel "comfortable" with an entry which has their name attached. Here's the rationale:

Many of us, myself included, despite years of "doing this", still are learning/following/adapting. This game constantly changes, and that theme is the only constant that I think I can acknowledge. I think we all can learn from each other's mistakes, and to this end, it will identify common areas that need to be discussed and rationalized away so that we can become better surfers ...

For me, with a system that is not of my creation (e.g. the Robots), I always am suspect at

1) back tests that I did not run myself,
2) analysis that the authors performed but which has not been acknowledged openly (not because of hiding anything, but simply because of the desire to present clear, concise data and sometimes other analysis detracts from the main message),
3) how much capital should be committed

#1 arises because I am a voracious backtester; I have my own methods, and I know my methods are the best <you're supposed to grin here>. This is a terrible bias that must be overcome within my head, and it isn't easy.
#2 arises out of pure communication -- teaching requires conciseness and clarity, and a thorough understanding of the subject matter. This means far more information is processed before it is communicated, and this is a natural step in dissemination. Again, "playing catch up" always leaves me feeling exposed, and when it's my capital at risk, it's hard to cross this particular chasm.
#3 is an ongoing battle for me -- all I can say is that I'm starting with a few hundred shares and I'll increase the amount as my confidence goes upward.

So, with this latest round, I had multiple positions on with IWM in multiple accounts. If you recall, we had several days where the signal was strong, and correspondingly, I picked up 100-sh block entries each day (6/10, 6/11, 6/15) using a combination of the levels recommended as well as my own discretion. On 6/22 I decided to sell for modest gains @ 80.46, leaving only 100sh each in my various accounts. There was no "reason" to sell, I simply had been hit hard with other mean-reverting strategies in the plummet from 6/1 to 6/13 and I needed to recover (fractions) of those losses.

Of course, with hindsight being 20/20, had I *strictly* followed the Robot trades, I would have made back a good portion of my 6/1 - 6/13 losses.

The lesson learned for me: Follow the Robot signals mechanically. The monies allocated within my Robot trades stand alone, and they cannot be influenced by the entire portfolio positions. So, for a $100K account, if 50K is allocated to the Robots, then the other 50K stands alone. I know this, I've practiced this, but in reality, it has been a hard rule to internalize.

[ericoleman]

Sometimes the hardest part is "letting go."

I sometimes fall prey to "wishing behavior"

By wishing, you try to decrease your discomfort by escaping into a fantasy. This is a dreadful waste of power. Not only do you have power going into passive behavior, but you also cloud reality, impairing your ability to problem solve. Remember that learning is the warrior's goal - Arno Ilgner in The Rock Warrior's Way

I owned GMCR and BIDU in the summer of 2009, both of which were sold far too early. Sometimes it was hard to look at these charts knowing that those two trades were the "big stocks" that I dumped too soon, wishing I had just held on! My good Doctor friend owned 1600 shares of Apple at split-adjusted price of $4, and has lamented selling in the 2009 bottom even with several thousand percent gain. I almost sense an inherent dissatisfaction in whatever outcomes we experience - either we sell to late or too early. More and more, I realize that the important element of all these experiences is to slowly improve upon our chosen methods. Clarify one's timeframe. Understand the cycle. And keep an open mind with a willingness to learn, accept the choices we make, and apply those lessons going forward.

Thanks for sharing everyone . . .

Best,
Eric

[Rembert]

More and more, I realize that the important element of all these experiences is to slowly improve upon our chosen methods. Clarify one's timeframe. Understand the cycle. And keep an open mind with a willingness to learn, accept the choices we make, and apply those lessons going forward.

That's also what many others (like Minervini, Fahmy, etc) have been saying ... define yourself as a trader. Define what timeframes to trade, when to take a loss, when to take a profit, define a re-entry strategy etc. You'll trade much more relaxed this way. I used to watch my stocks way too often ... for me it was often a distraction as I often reacted to intraday noise. So I stopped doing that with much better trades as a result. For all my disc trades I put profit targets and stops in as orders so I don't have to worry about them, once I buy them the positions take care of themselves basically.

Don't feel bad if you trade within your rules and make a loss or if you get stopped out and the stock then goes on to do what you tought in the first place without you on board. Instead adapt so that next time for example you have a re-entry strategy in place.

Trading with rules in place allows the trader to observe over time how to improve. But if one doesn't have rules or guidelines even, how can one know what to improve ?